I spent my childhood in Catholic school. Actually, I spent kindergarten through twelfth grade in Catholic school. This upbringing distorted my view of reality. It presented me with the illusion that humans were somehow outside of mother nature-that we were demigods among beasts.
It took thirty years for the laws of nature to put me in my place. Our species does not fall outside of the rules and regulations that guide our animal cousins. I am not a God among beasts. I am not a demigod among other humans. I am human…all too human.
This fall from grace was fast and coupled with an extremely hard landing. I found myself with no foundation, no basis, and no belief system. I felt so lost. I felt ill. What saved me from this existential crisis? Accepting my place in the universe as a homo sapien among my fellow sapiens and animal brethren. It was and has been the most humbling experience of my life.
It may seem silly, and it may seem stupid. “How could you not realize this sooner?” I’m not sure. We find answers exactly when we are supposed to, and I guess I just had not been ready to find out this ultimate truth. I always thought I was above the rules, above the regulations, and better than others. My egocentric view has crumbled and I am forced to plow forward without my heavenly foundations.
It has not been all bad I suppose. I have a renewed sense of respect for God/the universe and all of creation. I appreciate every day as a gift instead of a given. We are so lucky to be alive. We are so lucky to have each other. The world and life would be a tremendous bore without other lifeforms. I have developed a deeper love for my family and friends, and I cherish the time I get to spend with them. This humbling experience has forced me to become earthly, and find solace in my place in the universe. I’m going to use this tremendous gift of life to better myself and those around me as best as I can. Isn’t that the name of the game? It certainly seems like the only answer to me. Stay human, my friends.